I have left my loving country of Ireland. My family and friends, brothers and sisters in Christ and a piece of my heart... I hope that some day I will understand Gods will in my life. Being a missionary means having to be obediant in every asspect of the word. Being up for change at any moment. Being ready to submitt yourself 100% to Gods calling. Oh and trusting that he has chosen me to be a missionary because he knows that I am suited for this type of calling in my life....even when I am not sure at times.
Returning to Canada is a bitter sweet experience for me. On one hand I am looking forward to seeing my Church family again and all of those who have supported me along the way. I am excited to share with them the growth that has taken place, the changes that have occured and all of the amazing adventures I have had along the way. I struggle with the fact that God had told me that I would not be living in Abbotsford for two years and yet its been 8 month s and I am returning. That's right even I have questions every now and then.... welcome to this crazy thing we call "Being Obediant" I have learned that It doesn't matter if God told me that... what matters is now he is calling me back to Canada and to Abbotsford. And I also realize that I don't need to questions it I just need to trust that he has a plan for me and that by following his will in my life I CAN'T GO WRONG!!! I will tell you this he has never called me to do something and then left me on my own. And even though there have been times when I have thought to myself "What the Heck???" He has brought me through in all of his glory and splender. Repeatedly and Daily I hear his soft gentle voice telling me to "Trust Him" thank goodness he is a God of great patience. I feel as though I fall short of his callings in my life so often. Then I think stop and think to myself Andrea are you doing your best to follow God today? Sometimes the answer is "No. I'm not! I failed to trust him a few times today. I doubted and even questioned his will in my life. I even thought for just a moment that he had forgotten his promise to me." And then just as quickly as my doubts come he is there speaking softly in my ear "Andrea, I forgive you. Please trust that I have everything under control." I stop, take a deep breath and surrender once again to him. I love God so much it hurts. It hurts when I doubt him, or question his authority in my life. It hurts when I jump to conclussions about what is going on in my life or around me when I do not have all of the facts. It hurts because I have forgotten how much He loves me and wants me to succeed and be happy and to trust him. So for now although I do not fully understand my calling back to Canada I do trust that he is working things out for me and that it will all become clear to me when I get back. I just need to trust him.
God Bless you all and know that he has a plan for you and your life as well. And I want to also remind you that its alright to have doubts its all par for the course. xoxoxxo andrea
Returning to Canada is a bitter sweet experience for me. On one hand I am looking forward to seeing my Church family again and all of those who have supported me along the way. I am excited to share with them the growth that has taken place, the changes that have occured and all of the amazing adventures I have had along the way. I struggle with the fact that God had told me that I would not be living in Abbotsford for two years and yet its been 8 month s and I am returning. That's right even I have questions every now and then.... welcome to this crazy thing we call "Being Obediant" I have learned that It doesn't matter if God told me that... what matters is now he is calling me back to Canada and to Abbotsford. And I also realize that I don't need to questions it I just need to trust that he has a plan for me and that by following his will in my life I CAN'T GO WRONG!!! I will tell you this he has never called me to do something and then left me on my own. And even though there have been times when I have thought to myself "What the Heck???" He has brought me through in all of his glory and splender. Repeatedly and Daily I hear his soft gentle voice telling me to "Trust Him" thank goodness he is a God of great patience. I feel as though I fall short of his callings in my life so often. Then I think stop and think to myself Andrea are you doing your best to follow God today? Sometimes the answer is "No. I'm not! I failed to trust him a few times today. I doubted and even questioned his will in my life. I even thought for just a moment that he had forgotten his promise to me." And then just as quickly as my doubts come he is there speaking softly in my ear "Andrea, I forgive you. Please trust that I have everything under control." I stop, take a deep breath and surrender once again to him. I love God so much it hurts. It hurts when I doubt him, or question his authority in my life. It hurts when I jump to conclussions about what is going on in my life or around me when I do not have all of the facts. It hurts because I have forgotten how much He loves me and wants me to succeed and be happy and to trust him. So for now although I do not fully understand my calling back to Canada I do trust that he is working things out for me and that it will all become clear to me when I get back. I just need to trust him.
God Bless you all and know that he has a plan for you and your life as well. And I want to also remind you that its alright to have doubts its all par for the course. xoxoxxo andrea
posted by Andrea at 6/20/2007
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