One Day At A Time!!
It's just to easy for me to get caught up in worrying about tomorrow, or the next day or even next month! What's really hard is to just focus on today. What does today hold? What is my plan for today?
My daily montra has now become "Today I start anew" after speaking this aloud I then hand my day over to God. Before I go to sleep I make a plan... I plan out what I will do for the next day so that I can rest peacefully without worrying about tomorrow. After that its in his hands. I have nothing else to worry about if something in my day changes then I will handle it as it comes. But no longer do I sit and worry about the what if's. I just do not have the energy to be spending on thistype of thinking any longer. You see I sunddenly realized how much of my life I have missed out on because I have been worrying about things that I have no control over anyways. I was in a state where I would become completely paralized with anxiety about the future. What am I going to do when I get home? Where will I live? What will I do for employment? Am I even going home? How will I ever repay my student loans and my other big loans off? Get the point?
I was literally waking up inthe middle of the night and just laying in bed feaking out. My mind racing a hundred miles per hour, my heart pounding I would work myself up into a frenzy. Then before I knew it anywhere between three and four hours had gone by and I was not only tired but really depressed and filled with anxiety like I had never known before.
So now I just make a plan and give it to God. In the morning I wake up, give thanks for having another opportunity to serve our Lord and get on with my day.
If for some reason my plans change well I just go with the flow. And believe me when I say anyone who has been in the missions field knows that PLANS CHANGE! It is all part of the growth process. It has taught me to just let go and let God, to really just rely on God and know that he has things under control and it has especially taught me to get the Hell out of the way!!!
I have only just begun this process of "handing it over" but I will tell you this NEVER have I had a more peaceful nights rest then I have had in the past week. I actually sleep right through the night. I wake up refreshed and ready to "Start My Day Anew."
Worrying about nothing and praying about everything. I believe that the greatest injustice we do as Christains is NOT to allow God to take the lead. Because when we are trying to be in control we are simply stating "No Thank You God, I Do Not Need You!" When in reality... there is absolutley no way we can live without him. I have tried time and time again and each time I fail misserably. I need God, I don't want to live without his guidence anymore. I am blessed as are you to have a God that cares so much about us. We have a God that wants us to succeed in everything that we do. From the time we wake up to the time we go to bed.
Thank you heavenly father for loving me so well.
Love you kid Andrea xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
It's just to easy for me to get caught up in worrying about tomorrow, or the next day or even next month! What's really hard is to just focus on today. What does today hold? What is my plan for today?
My daily montra has now become "Today I start anew" after speaking this aloud I then hand my day over to God. Before I go to sleep I make a plan... I plan out what I will do for the next day so that I can rest peacefully without worrying about tomorrow. After that its in his hands. I have nothing else to worry about if something in my day changes then I will handle it as it comes. But no longer do I sit and worry about the what if's. I just do not have the energy to be spending on thistype of thinking any longer. You see I sunddenly realized how much of my life I have missed out on because I have been worrying about things that I have no control over anyways. I was in a state where I would become completely paralized with anxiety about the future. What am I going to do when I get home? Where will I live? What will I do for employment? Am I even going home? How will I ever repay my student loans and my other big loans off? Get the point?
I was literally waking up inthe middle of the night and just laying in bed feaking out. My mind racing a hundred miles per hour, my heart pounding I would work myself up into a frenzy. Then before I knew it anywhere between three and four hours had gone by and I was not only tired but really depressed and filled with anxiety like I had never known before.
So now I just make a plan and give it to God. In the morning I wake up, give thanks for having another opportunity to serve our Lord and get on with my day.
If for some reason my plans change well I just go with the flow. And believe me when I say anyone who has been in the missions field knows that PLANS CHANGE! It is all part of the growth process. It has taught me to just let go and let God, to really just rely on God and know that he has things under control and it has especially taught me to get the Hell out of the way!!!
I have only just begun this process of "handing it over" but I will tell you this NEVER have I had a more peaceful nights rest then I have had in the past week. I actually sleep right through the night. I wake up refreshed and ready to "Start My Day Anew."
Worrying about nothing and praying about everything. I believe that the greatest injustice we do as Christains is NOT to allow God to take the lead. Because when we are trying to be in control we are simply stating "No Thank You God, I Do Not Need You!" When in reality... there is absolutley no way we can live without him. I have tried time and time again and each time I fail misserably. I need God, I don't want to live without his guidence anymore. I am blessed as are you to have a God that cares so much about us. We have a God that wants us to succeed in everything that we do. From the time we wake up to the time we go to bed.
Thank you heavenly father for loving me so well.
Love you kid Andrea xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
posted by Andrea at 1/13/2007
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