They say that time heals old wounds... I say no, no they do not. God does!
I have over come many things in this lifetime. Many triumphs and failures I have actually shared with others and many I have shared with only God. And for no other reason except... He's my father and I love him like I have never loved before. And he loves me like no other is able to possibly love me. He loves me with a creators heart. With a Fathers pride, with a heart full of grace, compassion and pure love.
It has taken me a long time ( a lifetime infact) to over come my child abuse. I am no longer a victim but a survivor. I no longer harbor feelings of hate and disgust for my abusers. It has instead been replaced with compassion and forgiveness. I still remember the day it happened, where I was and who I shared my break through with. I remember the feeling of freedom. And the weight of the shakles falling from my body freeing me of years of oppression. I had spent years in counselling and therapy and thousands of dollars trying "feel better" about myself. Nothing worked! I mean there would be what I thought was a break through every now and then. But it never really went away. The pain and the torment, the self- hatered. It was all still there at the end of the day. And then new feelings were added. The feelings of shame, remorse, guilt, failure. Its alll just a vicious cycle. I was actully one of those people who had gone to therpist after therapist and counslor after counslor year after year after year. Like it was an accomplishment to be at something that long! For the record I still do not know anyone personaly that has been to a counselor and feels 100% better about themselves. Why... because they do not have the power to truly heal the mind, body and spirit. But God does and he did. And it did not take 15 years either. What it did take was a commitment from myself , a little trust and a whole lot of faith. And today I can honestly say I forgive those who caused harm against me. I forgive those who robbed me of my entire childhood, youth and young adulthood. I also forgive myself for my failed marriage, my years of countless self-abuse, self-hatred, self-loathing and self-distructive ways.
And even greater yet God has forgiven me for these things and shown me my true worth in His eyes. He has shown me my value as a human being, as a woman and as a child of his. He has shown me what my abusers were blind to see... A Beautiful Precious little girl. Who has as much to offer the world as it has to offer her.
Why am I sharing these things with you all now? I am sharing them with you because I was reminded just the other day what it is like to try and "heal" and "figure" things out on your own without God. And the truth of the matter is, Its impossible. You can not do it, it can absolutley not be done.
And try as you may you will not be able to accomplish healing in your life without God. Trust me I know of what I speak. I have been a seeker for many years, I have studied everything from New Ageism to Buddism, Hinduism you name it I have sought it out. The only true source of healing power is Jesus Christ! He accomplished over coming death for crying out loud I mean COME ON!!! He over came death people no other "god" has ever done that. So to all of those counsellors and therapists out there nice try but maybe you should stop taking payments from your patients and tell them the truth... you have no absolutely no authority over the oppression they are under. Nor do you have the answers .. that's my favorite one and You my friends you do not hold the answers either... but I do. The answer is accepting Jesus Christ into your life as your Lord and saviour!
That will be £200.00 please and I am sorry no personal cheques!
I have over come many things in this lifetime. Many triumphs and failures I have actually shared with others and many I have shared with only God. And for no other reason except... He's my father and I love him like I have never loved before. And he loves me like no other is able to possibly love me. He loves me with a creators heart. With a Fathers pride, with a heart full of grace, compassion and pure love.
It has taken me a long time ( a lifetime infact) to over come my child abuse. I am no longer a victim but a survivor. I no longer harbor feelings of hate and disgust for my abusers. It has instead been replaced with compassion and forgiveness. I still remember the day it happened, where I was and who I shared my break through with. I remember the feeling of freedom. And the weight of the shakles falling from my body freeing me of years of oppression. I had spent years in counselling and therapy and thousands of dollars trying "feel better" about myself. Nothing worked! I mean there would be what I thought was a break through every now and then. But it never really went away. The pain and the torment, the self- hatered. It was all still there at the end of the day. And then new feelings were added. The feelings of shame, remorse, guilt, failure. Its alll just a vicious cycle. I was actully one of those people who had gone to therpist after therapist and counslor after counslor year after year after year. Like it was an accomplishment to be at something that long! For the record I still do not know anyone personaly that has been to a counselor and feels 100% better about themselves. Why... because they do not have the power to truly heal the mind, body and spirit. But God does and he did. And it did not take 15 years either. What it did take was a commitment from myself , a little trust and a whole lot of faith. And today I can honestly say I forgive those who caused harm against me. I forgive those who robbed me of my entire childhood, youth and young adulthood. I also forgive myself for my failed marriage, my years of countless self-abuse, self-hatred, self-loathing and self-distructive ways.
And even greater yet God has forgiven me for these things and shown me my true worth in His eyes. He has shown me my value as a human being, as a woman and as a child of his. He has shown me what my abusers were blind to see... A Beautiful Precious little girl. Who has as much to offer the world as it has to offer her.
Why am I sharing these things with you all now? I am sharing them with you because I was reminded just the other day what it is like to try and "heal" and "figure" things out on your own without God. And the truth of the matter is, Its impossible. You can not do it, it can absolutley not be done.
And try as you may you will not be able to accomplish healing in your life without God. Trust me I know of what I speak. I have been a seeker for many years, I have studied everything from New Ageism to Buddism, Hinduism you name it I have sought it out. The only true source of healing power is Jesus Christ! He accomplished over coming death for crying out loud I mean COME ON!!! He over came death people no other "god" has ever done that. So to all of those counsellors and therapists out there nice try but maybe you should stop taking payments from your patients and tell them the truth... you have no absolutely no authority over the oppression they are under. Nor do you have the answers .. that's my favorite one and You my friends you do not hold the answers either... but I do. The answer is accepting Jesus Christ into your life as your Lord and saviour!
That will be £200.00 please and I am sorry no personal cheques!
posted by Andrea at 5/13/2007
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