What am I doing here?
This would be the most frequently asked question by me over the past few weeks, what indeed. That and why ireland? What could I possibly do here for these people? Its funny how feelings of inadiquicy set in when you least expect them to. I mean when things are going well and you think you have things figured out bam! God hits you right between the eyes and leads you in a completly different direction away from the comforts you have grown to know and love.
This is what he has done for me. As you have probably read I was extatic about being able to work at the Aisling Project, well guess what that is NOT what God wanted me to be doing after all. How miss guided I was by none other then myself. I went right for the comfortable and familiar ministry, instead of the one that I was being gently guided into by his graceful hand. Instead I chose confortable which then caused me to have to get yanked out of that comfort zone so that I could go where I can actually be useful. And believe me it is not the place I would have thought or chose for myself at all. I have been called to work more closely in the churches ministries. First and foremost "womens ministries" as I resigned my post at the Aisling Project (kicking and screaming) I couldn't help but ask "are you sure you know what you are doing" surley there was someone more suitable for this call then I. Apparently not though. When Pastor Brian confronted me with his feelings about me working at the Aisling Project I was so angry and confussed at first then once I calmed down had a good cry and asked God what the heck! It all became clear to me. (ok it took about 4 days but whose counting) I realized that most valuable time I spent while at the Aisling Project was in the office with Cindy the directors wife. Throughout our conversations she kept saying "I don't know why I am telling you this? I have never told anyone this. I don't usually feel this comfortable with other women." You see over the past year God has been trying (thank goodness he's patient) to show me that being me is enough. And its not me doing the ministry anyways its Jesus, its his works in my life that give me the ablility to talk to anyone anyways. Its not me its all about Jesus. Good lord I have a huge ego. You see its not us doing anything its Jesus and his works in and through us that is the true worker. I don't need to worry about wether or not I am going to be suitable or even good enough for the job because as long as I get out of the way and allow God to do his works through me, and in me and around me then I am being a true follower of Christ's. The real question now is... can I get out of the way long enough for him to do his job?
I hope so.
Please pray for my church family in Canada The Abbotsford Church of the Nazarene. Pray for peace within its community we have lost a good friend, Pastor Elwyn Grobe. We are still praying for the health of Pastor Graham and Karens baby girls.
Pray for the ministrties in the church and all of those involed.
Please pray for my health, mental, physical, emotional, spiritual.
Pray for my family I love you all may God keep you safe.
Please pray for my church here in Ireland the Balbriggan Baptist Church as Pastor Brian and Colleen and thier family are preparing to leave for Canada. Pray for the pastor God is preparing to replace him here.
Praise God for the work he is doing in my life out here and in the lives of those around me.
God bless all of you I love and miss you. Thank you for your support while I am here doing my work for the Lord.
Thank you for all of your prayers I appreciate them and YES God is listening!!!
This would be the most frequently asked question by me over the past few weeks, what indeed. That and why ireland? What could I possibly do here for these people? Its funny how feelings of inadiquicy set in when you least expect them to. I mean when things are going well and you think you have things figured out bam! God hits you right between the eyes and leads you in a completly different direction away from the comforts you have grown to know and love.
This is what he has done for me. As you have probably read I was extatic about being able to work at the Aisling Project, well guess what that is NOT what God wanted me to be doing after all. How miss guided I was by none other then myself. I went right for the comfortable and familiar ministry, instead of the one that I was being gently guided into by his graceful hand. Instead I chose confortable which then caused me to have to get yanked out of that comfort zone so that I could go where I can actually be useful. And believe me it is not the place I would have thought or chose for myself at all. I have been called to work more closely in the churches ministries. First and foremost "womens ministries" as I resigned my post at the Aisling Project (kicking and screaming) I couldn't help but ask "are you sure you know what you are doing" surley there was someone more suitable for this call then I. Apparently not though. When Pastor Brian confronted me with his feelings about me working at the Aisling Project I was so angry and confussed at first then once I calmed down had a good cry and asked God what the heck! It all became clear to me. (ok it took about 4 days but whose counting) I realized that most valuable time I spent while at the Aisling Project was in the office with Cindy the directors wife. Throughout our conversations she kept saying "I don't know why I am telling you this? I have never told anyone this. I don't usually feel this comfortable with other women." You see over the past year God has been trying (thank goodness he's patient) to show me that being me is enough. And its not me doing the ministry anyways its Jesus, its his works in my life that give me the ablility to talk to anyone anyways. Its not me its all about Jesus. Good lord I have a huge ego. You see its not us doing anything its Jesus and his works in and through us that is the true worker. I don't need to worry about wether or not I am going to be suitable or even good enough for the job because as long as I get out of the way and allow God to do his works through me, and in me and around me then I am being a true follower of Christ's. The real question now is... can I get out of the way long enough for him to do his job?
I hope so.
Please pray for my church family in Canada The Abbotsford Church of the Nazarene. Pray for peace within its community we have lost a good friend, Pastor Elwyn Grobe. We are still praying for the health of Pastor Graham and Karens baby girls.
Pray for the ministrties in the church and all of those involed.
Please pray for my health, mental, physical, emotional, spiritual.
Pray for my family I love you all may God keep you safe.
Please pray for my church here in Ireland the Balbriggan Baptist Church as Pastor Brian and Colleen and thier family are preparing to leave for Canada. Pray for the pastor God is preparing to replace him here.
Praise God for the work he is doing in my life out here and in the lives of those around me.
God bless all of you I love and miss you. Thank you for your support while I am here doing my work for the Lord.
Thank you for all of your prayers I appreciate them and YES God is listening!!!
posted by Andrea at 12/13/2006
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